Thursday, February 27, 2025

A Bipolar Woman's Lived Experience: Travel Mania and Self-Care

A Bipolar Woman's Lived Experience: Travel Mania and Self-Care

Bipolar disorder is a complex mood disorder characterized by extreme high-highs (Mania) and low-lows (Depression) which can lead to psychotic symptoms like delusions and hallucinations. When there are changes to the environment, sleep disruptions, stress and anxiety, altered routines, mood episodes often occur in people with Bipolar disorder. Travel for instance has elements of all of the above and can trigger or worsen symptoms. This article will explore the challenges individuals face while travelling, lived experience stories of the effects of jet lag and creative self-care practices when travelling with Bipolar disorder     

Challenges and Triggers: Travelling with Bipolar Disorder

When you are in unfamiliar surroundings, away from the comforts of home this can signal a disruption in your daily routine, throwing off established habits around sleep, medication or self-care. Travel can be exciting however for individuals with Bipolar disorder it can also present many challenges. Whether you are crossing timezones or taking a cross-country trip in a car or on a train, it is important to know your triggers and the challenges you may face when exploring the road less travelled. 

New Environment: Being in a new place, away from your established structure routine and habits as well as dealing with jet lag can be stressful. The prolonged excitement from being in a new and different environment can act as a trigger for Bipolar disorder symptoms.  

Mood Episode: Travel can trigger manic or hypomanic episodes characterized by an extreme elevation in mood. 

Anxiety: Travel can trigger anxiety especially when crossing into new timezones. The process of travelling from start to finish, whether it’s packing for a new destination or navigating through a new place upon arrival can stir up anxiety. 

Sleep Disruption: Travel can interrupt the Circadian Rhythm (sleep pattern) and have a negative effect on medication management. 

A Bipolar Woman’s Travel Log: My Experience with Travel Mania

I’ve travelled quite a bit in my life. From family vacations to business trips, North American travel, Caribbean travel and most recently I travelled to my home country Guyana, South America. I’ve taken buses, trains and planes to reach my destination but regardless of the mode of transportation I have always found myself experiencing what I call “Travel Mania.” Travel Mania is when you experience symptoms of hypomania or Mania while travelling to an unfamiliar country where you may cross timezones, climate change or environmental differences that disrupt the routines and habits that you have structured at home. This can cause a shift in your baseline mood leading to a minor to severe Bipolar episode.

In 2007 my family travelled by plane to St Maarten for a family holiday. Well aware of my anxieties around flying, my mother managed my medication and monitored my sleep in the hotel upon arrival. I slept on the day of arrival and for part of the following morning, waking up energized and ready to enjoy my vacation. Before I had understanding of my Bipolar cycle I believed this was enough rest. However during the 10-day holiday I slept less and less each night, mismanaged my medication, participated in risky behaviours and my moods shifted from elation and excitement to anger and aggravation easily. I was experiencing hypomania which quickly turned into Mania and I was hospitalized within a few weeks of returning home. 

In 2022, I travelled by bus to New York City to visit family. It was a 13 hour bus trip that included two rest stops. Because of the cramped space on the vehicle, sleep was hard to come by and I experienced physical discomfort for the majority of the ride. When I arrived in New York City I was immediately overwhelmed by the amount of people and cars on the road and very over-stimulated by the shining lights on every corner. When I arrived at my family’s home outside of the big city I couldn’t manage to get more than 3-4 hours a night of sleep. I woke up extremely early, went out all day, ate very little and went to bed after midnight every night, often staying up with my cousins to spend quality time. 

I was taking my medication daily and on time however, the major change in my sleep hygiene elevated my mood giving me excess energy and leading to hypomania. When I returned home to the stresses of life, family and work I was physically depleted but couldn’t maintain any quality of sleep, the cycle I was on my vacation followed me home and within a month I was hospitalized and experiencing Mania.   

Recently, armed with a better understanding of my illness and how travel can affect my mood cycle, I booked a month-long vacation in my home county Guyana. It was a life-changing trip full of culture, good food and re-connection with family. I took daily walks for self-care, I managed my medication fairly well only altering the time on a few occasions, I tried to re-create my structure, routine and habit from back home into my temporary home in Guyana. However, I noticed after the first few weeks that sleep was not coming easy and eventually I was on a 2 hour a night sleep cycle. By day 15, I was energized when waking up, incorporating more activity into my daily routine, my thoughts and speech raced and I was beginning to neglect my normal medication management routine, still taking them consistently but at odd hours. I started to hyper-spend and on one occasion participated in risky behaviours. 

This scared me and I reached out to my support team in Canada and they recommended I sleep for as long as I could for as many days as I could. They recognized even if I couldn’t that sleep deprivation was at the root of this Travel Mania. So I slept, for hours and days only setting my alarm to wake me to take my medication. I slept for 4 days straight and when I woke up I felt like myself again. When I arrived back home I made an appointment with my psychiatrist and he confirmed that I had had a manic episode but it was self-managed. He advised me that this will likely happen again especially when crossing timezones but can be mitigated by my quality sleep and taking my medication correctly and on time.  

Final Thoughts 

Practice Travel Self-Care with Bipolar Disorder 

When travelling and managing a mental illness like Bipolar disorder it is important to practice self-care in a more creative way. Previously I believed the self-care practice was taking time for myself to go on a vacation but over the years I have gained perspective and a different attitude around self-care for travel. It starts with research, asking questions like where do I want to go and will it be conducive to maintaining positive mental health. Other things to consider is how long you will travel for and where will you stay? 

If you are interested in going somewhere that may be an overstimulating environment consider ensuring that the place you sleep in is quiet and calm. If you only have a short time for your vacation, less than 10 days consider planning a staycation rather than international travel. Ensuring that you have access to your medication daily regardless of where you are can be done by switching to blister pouches that you can carry on your person. When you are planning your trip try to make sure you get quality sleep both at your destination and when you return home, this might mean you have to come back a few days early to catch up on sleep before you return to your regular life. It may also be a good idea to review and update your crisis plan to refer to if necessary.  

Planning a travel experience when managing your Bipolar disorder can be challenging but not impossible. It is important to remember the world is yours to enjoy and experience but it is necessary to take the steps needed to ensure you are practicing self-care for your mental health while travelling. There are things to consider like environmental changes, crossing timezones, change in routine, anxiety, mood cycles, sleep disruption, medication management and crisis planning as elements in deciding where in the world you journey to next.

If you have lived experience with Travel Mania or want to share your Travel Self-Care tips please connect with me by leaving a comment. Remember we are on this journey together and it's important to continue having conversations that take us beyond the stigma of mental illness and what’s possible.

Tuesday, February 25, 2025

Embracing Self-Compassion: Lessons Learned by Women with Bipolar Disorder

Embracing Self-Compassion: Lessons Learned by Women with Bipolar Disorder

American writer and teacher Jack Kornfield said, “If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete.” When you are dealing with a mood disorder it can be very challenging to practice self-compassion. Sometimes, the shifts in emotions and your cognitive behaviours, from manic to depressive and all the moods that lie in between make it difficult to process experiences in a positive and productive way. In many instances individuals with Bipolar disorder have a myriad of negative experiences during periods of illness that challenges our ability to feel compassion toward ourselves leaving us feeling inadequate, uncertain and incomplete. The following article will give you an understanding of the principles of the practice of self-compassion and how they can be applied to building resilience and better mental health on your journey to wellness.      

Understanding Self-Compassion and Bipolar Disorder

Self-compassion is the practice of being kind and understanding towards yourself when you experience failure, inadequacy, or suffering. It’s a powerful tool for building resilience and improving mental health. Components of self-compassion include self-kindness, treating yourself with the same kindness you would treat a friend or family member, common humanity, recognizing that your experiences are normal and part of life and mindfulness, being present and accepting of your experiences without judgement.

Benefits of Self-compassion

  • Improve mental and physical health

  • Reduces feelings of anxiety and depression

  • Helps dispel fear of failure

  • Creates opportunity to learn from mistakes

  • Drives solutions based thinking

  • Fosters creativity

  • Leads to progress in goals set

There are challenges  to practicing self-compassion when dealing with a mental illness like Bipolar disorder. The mood swings and emotional cycles of the disorder can be rapid and severe. When dealing with high-highs (Mania or Psychosis) for instance, a person may have negative experiences that once in wellness can cause feelings of deep shame or guilt. In many cases your cognition of the negative incident may not be clear so if you do not have a full picture of your suffering, failure or inadequacy practicing self-compassion or any of the components of this becomes more complex. When dealing with low mood (Depression) combined with anxiety symptoms you may experience several cognitive distortions (inaccurate ways of thinking) which can make it extremely difficult to incorporate self-compassion when processing failure, suffering or inadequacy.

For women with Bipolar disorder emotional regulation may look like showing kindness and self-compassion toward the emotion itself rather than the experience that makes you feel the emotion. Essentially, when it comes to self-compassion the key is to allow yourself to feel your feelings even when you are not certain where they come from and why you feel that way. Having a mood disorder like Bipolar disorder is a unique experience full of emotional ups and downs therefore its important to practice mindfulness within self-compassion and remain present in your awareness of your emotions not judging them or the challenging experiences attached to your negative feelings.    

A Bipolar Woman’s Lesson on How Self-Compassion Builds Resilience and Better Mental Health 

 My experiences with mental illness and recovery have taught me that in order to practice self-compassion there are several other abilities I needed to gain. Self-reflection, self-discovery,  self-awareness and self-acceptance were important building blocks before I experienced self-compassion on my journey to resilience and ultimately better mental health. 

For years I believed my educational credentials combined with hard work in various careers would make my family proud, make me feel successful and it would prove to the world that regardless of my mental illness I was like everyone else. However the reality was different, no matter how hard I worked or how much success I gained within the first year in a position I was either terminated or had to quit due to circumstances related to my mental illness.

This cycle continued most of my adult life and recovery felt impossible. So I started to do the two things that gave me hope: daily prayers and daily letters of encouragement to myself. These two practices acted as tools of self-reflection allowing me to ask questions that only I could answer. I discovered that I still had the desire to achieve my mental health goals as well as pursue my dreams but it was going to take hard work. Through therapy, counselling and a lot of self-care I became aware of where my responsibilities were regarding my lack of progress and I was able to take accountability for my mental health.

I realized that my mental illness wasn’t stopping me from being my best self, I was. By not giving my illness the time and respect it deserved, by living in other people’s purpose instead of my own, I had done myself a disservice. I wasn’t a failure nor was I inadequate, I had misplaced my focus and energy in hopes of pleasing others. I realized every failure I experienced was a lesson and an opportunity for personal growth and a deeper understanding of my Bipolar disorder. I finally showed myself self-compassion and that helped build my resilience for all that is to come in my mental health journey.    

Practical Ways to Cultivate Self-Compassion

Along the way I have learned some practical techniques for cultivating Self-compassion. These practices can be used at any stage of your self-compassion journey. I’ve found each helpful when negative thoughts or cognitive distortion (inaccurate ways of thinking) affect positive mental health outcomes. 

  • Mindfulness techniques: Staying present without judgment of the experience or emotions attached to it.

  • Self-kindness practices: Speaking to yourself as you would a friend or family member.

  • Journaling for self-reflection: Writing prompts to challenge negative self-talk. Write letters to yourself and re-read with the goal of challenging your own perspective.

  • Building a self-compassion toolkit: Fill your toolkit with positive affirmations, grounding exercises like “earthing”, and self-care rituals like good sleep hygiene and meditation

  • Therapeutic approaches: Speak to your mental healthcare team about Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) and Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT) both promote self-compassion in their practice.

The Role of Community and Support Systems

The people you surround yourself with can have an impact on your ability to feel self-compassion. It’s important to build a supportive team of people who understand your mental illness and the journey of self-compassion you are embarking on. There are resources in your community to help assist you in building the best circle of support. Below are some suggestions on where to begin:


  • Connecting with others:  Peer support is an excellent way to build self-compassion because these support workers have lived experience with mental illness and can help you feel understood.

  • Online and in-person support groups: Sitting in on a group where you and other members share common interests and experiences can be a good resource for finding your tribe.

  • Educating family and friends: Encouraging loved ones to support your journey toward self-compassion by educating them on your mental illness and the challenges you’ve experienced can give them insight on the importance of self-compassion.

Final Thoughts

Self-compassion is a difficult but rewarding practice that is important for the healing journey. When dealing with Bipolar disorder often characterized by emotional ups and downs it is essential to show compassion for your experiences but also for the emotions attached to those hard experiences as they are a part of your history. Developing abilities such as self-reflection, self-discovery, self-awareness and self-acceptance are important pillars that go hand-in-hand with practicing self-compassion. When you come to the realization that the old methods of self-loathing and self-recrimination do not speak to your current mental health and wellness goals and experiences attempting a different approach filled with self-kindness, mindfulness and self-compassion can lead you to a new way of relating to yourself and your mental illness. 

Remember, the journey to self-compassion isn’t about ignoring or forgetting the struggles of your past, rather the journey becomes possible when you give yourself grace when reflecting on your experiences and you continue to show yourself kindness when you discover both the positive and not-so-positive aspects of the emotional experiences faced on your journey to wellness. 


Monday, February 24, 2025

Navigating Work-Life Balance with Bipolar Disorder: Insights from Women

Navigating Work-Life Balance with Bipolar Disorder: Insights from Women

Defining Work-Life Balance

Work-life balance is the balance between the time spent working and the time spent on personal activities. It's important for maintaining productivity, mental and physical health and social connection.

It involves prioritizing and managing responsibilities in both your personal and professional life.

It’s about avoiding burnout and feeling overwhelmed.

How to Achieve It:

  • Set boundaries between work and personal time.

  • Take regular breaks

  • Schedule time for personal interests 

  • Delegate tasks when possible

  • Say no to extra work

  • Take vacations

  • Practice relaxation techniques like meditation, mindfulness and yoga

The Myth of Work-Life Balance

When I look at the above definition of work-life balance I can’t help but to reflect on the concept. This  term is often used in industries to show support for their employees having both a professional and personal life. Employers encourage their employees to set work aside after the designated “quitting-time” and pour their focus into friends, family, fun and relaxation. Employers show concern about things like burnout and employee turnover and will go so far as to create opportunities for forced social interactions to promote work-life balance in the workplace setting itself–it's all very confusing. It has been my experience after years of working in various industries and trying to balance the management of my Bipolar disorder, a large aspect of my life, work-life balance doesn’t really exist for me and burnout is inevitable. 

When I was “green” in my mental illness I prioritized work over my mental health. I did not have the knowledge and understanding that even when I was experiencing periods of wellness I was not like other people who could burn the candle at both ends. Although I would usually start a work experience strong, I would interview well, I would achieve success the first few weeks or months but the reality of my mental illness would eventually rear its head whether it would come in the form of having to take time off for a depressive episode, feeling overwhelmed by my work load and fearing management would find out about my illness or lacking sleep because anxieties surrounding constant fear of failure and subsequent termination, I never felt a sense of balance at work because of the imbalance due to the presence of mental illness in my life. 

As I got older and more confident in my mental health I took on low-stress positions in industries like food services and retail. I was open about my mental health circumstances and I felt accepted by my co-workers. The problem was however, that I was not stimulated by these positions. Tasks were too easy, staff was too friendly and management behaved as though employees were dispensable.  I took more time off in these industries than any other, allowed myself to wallow in my mental illness rather than practice self-care, medication management or create the structure, routine and habit I needed to get back to work. Again, my life outside of work, my inability to balance my Bipolar disorder conflicted with the work-life balance model practiced in low-stress industries that seemed ideal for someone with a high-stress mental illness.

Work-Life Balance and The Dream

A few years ago I thought I found my dream position as a Peer Support Specialist. Among other requirements, I had to have lived experience with mental illness and the mental healthcare system. This was right up my ally: my employer and co-workers would have first-hand knowledge of mental illnesses such as Bipolar disorder, I would spend my work hours educating clients about experiences that would give them insight and hope on their journey to recovery and wellness and I could spend my personal time without shame or guilt managing my own mental health. My career as a Peer Supporter began well, I thrived and flourished in the role gaining knowledge and understanding of the mental health services sector as well as further understanding of my own illness. Then in March 2020 the pandemic hit and after a brief period of redeployment my department was shut down and I was fired. I was devastated and lost but in the midst of this tragedy I secured another position as a Peer Supporter.

What I did not realize then that I know now was after the trauma of the first position, the pandemic and a relocation I started my new position burnt out and terrified. I was “green Onika” again, putting work before my mental health and my personal life. I forgot that mismanagement of my basic needs like rest, regular psychiatrist appointments, medication management, self-care and setting healthy boundaries at work and home were key pillars in maintaining my mental health and keeping Mania at bay. I took on too much due to a need to impress my superiors and secure a permanent position within the organization. Sleepless nights lead to racing thoughts of daily recrimination and eventual termination. When I should say ‘no’ I found myself saying ‘yes’ overwhelming my exhausted and fragile mind with more than was realistic. I lost my sense of self and purpose. When I finally took a break in the form of vacation I slept so much that upon my return to work I needed to take additional time off due cognitive and emotional dysfunction, extreme exhaustion and dissociation. In an attempt to find my balance I fell hard and fast and I’m still recovering.

Final Thought

Based on my experiences I have come to the following conclusion about how work-life balance plays a role in my Bipolar disorder management: I believe when you dedicate your life to balancing your Bipolar disorder it is not sustainable to maintain a work-life balance that suits standard employment, rather I believe it's possible to practice work-life balance if you find your passion (work) and prioritize your life (mental health) only then does balance come. 

 I consulted several of my working support team members to get their perspective and they say the following regarding work-life balance:

-“Not sure if there is an ideal ratio to achieve balance between work and life or if they are separate or one and the same. But work and life joy need boundaries, it starts with being comfortable with and even appreciating the word “NO” as an acceptable answer to the pressures that come at us. And  by carefully selecting when to use the word “Yes”. Work is part of life, and so is rest. Work is better after rest. And rest always feels good after work. Find the right ratio and repeat the cycle.”- My Support Team Member on Work-Life Balance

-“Work life balance does not exist in the exact sense. I think of it more like homeostasis in the body. It's possible to keep things in a nice range and we can get better (or worse) and identify when we need to tweak things to ebb one way or the other. When we don’t do a great job of that we can set new normals which make our alert systems only go off when things are crazy out of whack. That’s when it takes more concerted efforts and changes to bring things back into range.That said, societally we have established a balance range that is probably pretty out of whack so we have to figure out our own limits to an extent.”-My Support Team Member on Work-Life Balance

-”No. You can’t balance your life and work in today’s economy. The economy forces you to work more so you can have a better quality of life but you have no time to enjoy life. The current state of the economy forces you to work excessively, sometimes in multiple positions just to make ends meet, placing your personal life last place on your priority list which by definition is an imbalance.”-My Support Team Member on Work-Life Balance 

The women quoted in the above statements are employed in various industries and have varying levels of experience with mental health. It is clear however, regardless of the state of your mental health, navigating work-life balance is challenging on the best of days. Work-life balance is not an impossible concept for some and can be achieved in the right circumstances but it is up to the individual to foster these conditions. Ask yourself: “What is my number one priority with work? What are the most important priorities in my life? Can these priorities co-exist or do they clash? For myself, my priority is maintaining stability in my mental health and managing the symptoms of my mental illness and that is a full time job that does not allow for me to prioritize someone else's bottom line. I have decided to focus on projects that I’m passionate about and that can be easily set aside if I experience another mental health crisis. I have let go of the fear of disappointing employers or the worries around not meeting deadlines. In the world of work-life balance I choose life, I choose self-care, I choose finding my version of balance, I choose my mental health and wellness and I choose me.

Saturday, February 22, 2025

You Have to Heal to be Whole - Onika L. Dainty | Life Lessons Series

 

You Have to Heal to Be Whole - Onika L. Dainty | Life Lessons Series

Lesson #5

You have to heal to be whole.


The healing process is not easy, it's hard work. It’s a decision you have to make daily to change the circumstance that is holding you back from being your best self and living the life you deserve. When we experience pain, loss or deep trauma we think that the best way to heal is to avoid the realities of our experiences and endure, bury the issues deep down inside and soldier on. However, when we choose this method over facing our pain, loss or trauma we lose a piece of ourselves and stand in the way of our own growth never becoming who we truly meant to be. We fill our subconscious with unresolved emotions and memories of traumatic experiences like a pressure cooker on the verge of explosion because the lid can’t stay on forever. 


Release is a part of the healing process. When you find healthy ways to release your pain, hurt and trauma it can begin the process of finding yourself. It’s like putting the pieces of a puzzle together until you see a whole image, a whole you. When I started my healing journey  important pieces to my puzzle were learning to love myself, have self-compassion remembering my trauma was my circumstance not who I am. I developed self-awareness in my healing journey taking the time to re-learn myself, who I am, what I wanted out of this life, my dreams and my goals for the future and reflecting and reframing the often negative narrative I had been telling myself, a narrative that had kept me stuck.


Through the support of family, friends and my mental healthcare team I have been able to take the steps I needed to to address the experiences in my life that filled me with anxiety, fear, self-loathing and self-doubt. The process was long and arduous, there were watershed tears that cleansed me of my past, there were perspectives revealed that I never considered, there was grieving the loss of the girl I was but also of the woman the trauma turned me into, there were sleepless nights and even more uncomfortable moments. The biggest challenge with the healing process is remembering it's a process and healing doesn’t happen over night. 


I realized healing is an important part of my wellness journey. It's hard work and it’s painful at times but consider if going on your healing journey is worth the destination of being whole again. 

Thursday, February 20, 2025

How to Advocate for Yourself in Mental Healthcare as a Woman with Bipolar Disorder

How to Advocate for Yourself in Mental Healthcare as a Woman with Bipolar Disorder

American writer and teacher Jack Kornfield said, “If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete.” When you are dealing with a mood disorder it can be very challenging to practice self-compassion. Sometimes, the shifts in emotions and your cognitive behaviours, from manic to depressive and all the moods that lie in between make it difficult to process experiences in a positive and productive way. In many instances individuals with Bipolar disorder have a myriad of negative experiences during periods of illness that challenges our ability to feel compassion toward ourselves leaving us feeling inadequate, uncertain and incomplete. The following article will give you an understanding of the principles of the practice of self-compassion and how they can be applied to building resilience and better mental health on your journey to wellness.      

Understanding Self-Compassion and Bipolar Disorder

Self-compassion is the practice of being kind and understanding towards yourself when you experience failure, inadequacy, or suffering. It’s a powerful tool for building resilience and improving mental health. Components of self-compassion include self-kindness, treating yourself with the same kindness you would treat a friend or family member, common humanity, recognizing that your experiences are normal and part of life and mindfulness, being present and accepting of your experiences without judgement.

Benefits of Self-compassion

  • Improve mental and physical health

  • Reduces feelings of anxiety and depression

  • Helps dispel fear of failure

  • Creates opportunity to learn from mistakes

  • Drives solutions based thinking

  • Fosters creativity

  • Leads to progress in goals set

There are challenges  to practicing self-compassion when dealing with a mental illness like Bipolar disorder. The mood swings and emotional cycles of the disorder can be rapid and severe. When dealing with high-highs (Mania or Psychosis) for instance, a person may have negative experiences that once in wellness can cause feelings of deep shame or guilt. In many cases your cognition of the negative incident may not be clear so if you do not have a full picture of your suffering, failure or inadequacy practicing self-compassion or any of the components of this becomes more complex. When dealing with low mood (Depression) combined with anxiety symptoms you may experience several cognitive distortions (inaccurate ways of thinking) which can make it extremely difficult to incorporate self-compassion when processing failure, suffering or inadequacy.

For women with Bipolar disorder emotional regulation may look like showing kindness and self-compassion toward the emotion itself rather than the experience that makes you feel the emotion. Essentially, when it comes to self-compassion the key is to allow yourself to feel your feelings even when you are not certain where they come from and why you feel that way. Having a mood disorder like Bipolar disorder is a unique experience full of emotional ups and downs therefore its important to practice mindfulness within self-compassion and remain present in your awareness of your emotions not judging them or the challenging experiences attached to your negative feelings.    

A Bipolar Woman’s Lesson on How Self-Compassion Builds Resilience and Better Mental Health 

 My experiences with mental illness and recovery have taught me that in order to practice self-compassion there are several other abilities I needed to gain. Self-reflection, self-discovery,  self-awareness and self-acceptance were important building blocks before I experienced self-compassion on my journey to resilience and ultimately better mental health. 

For years I believed my educational credentials combined with hard work in various careers would make my family proud, make me feel successful and it would prove to the world that regardless of my mental illness I was like everyone else. However the reality was different, no matter how hard I worked or how much success I gained within the first year in a position I was either terminated or had to quit due to circumstances related to my mental illness.

This cycle continued most of my adult life and recovery felt impossible. So I started to do the two things that gave me hope: daily prayers and daily letters of encouragement to myself. These two practices acted as tools of self-reflection allowing me to ask questions that only I could answer. I discovered that I still had the desire to achieve my mental health goals as well as pursue my dreams but it was going to take hard work. Through therapy, counselling and a lot of self-care I became aware of where my responsibilities were regarding my lack of progress and I was able to take accountability for my mental health.

I realized that my mental illness wasn’t stopping me from being my best self, I was. By not giving my illness the time and respect it deserved, by living in other people’s purpose instead of my own, I had done myself a disservice. I wasn’t a failure nor was I inadequate, I had misplaced my focus and energy in hopes of pleasing others. I realized every failure I experienced was a lesson and an opportunity for personal growth and a deeper understanding of my Bipolar disorder. I finally showed myself self-compassion and that helped build my resilience for all that is to come in my mental health journey.    

Practical Ways to Cultivate Self-Compassion

Along the way I have learned some practical techniques for cultivating Self-compassion. These practices can be used at any stage of your self-compassion journey. I’ve found each helpful when negative thoughts or cognitive distortion (inaccurate ways of thinking) affect positive mental health outcomes. 

  • Mindfulness techniques: Staying present without judgment of the experience or emotions attached to it.

  • Self-kindness practices: Speaking to yourself as you would a friend or family member.

  • Journaling for self-reflection: Writing prompts to challenge negative self-talk. Write letters to yourself and re-read with the goal of challenging your own perspective.

  • Building a self-compassion toolkit: Fill your toolkit with positive affirmations, grounding exercises like “earthing”, and self-care rituals like good sleep hygiene and meditation

  • Therapeutic approaches: Speak to your mental healthcare team about Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) and Dialectical Behavioural Therapy (DBT) both promote self-compassion in their practice.

The Role of Community and Support Systems

The people you surround yourself with can have an impact on your ability to feel self-compassion. It’s important to build a supportive team of people who understand your mental illness and the journey of self-compassion you are embarking on. There are resources in your community to help assist you in building the best circle of support. Below are some suggestions on where to begin:


  • Connecting with others:  Peer support is an excellent way to build self-compassion because these support workers have lived experience with mental illness and can help you feel understood.

  • Online and in-person support groups: Sitting in on a group where you and other members share common interests and experiences can be a good resource for finding your tribe.

  • Educating family and friends: Encouraging loved ones to support your journey toward self-compassion by educating them on your mental illness and the challenges you’ve experienced can give them insight on the importance of self-compassion.

Final Thoughts

Self-compassion is a difficult but rewarding practice that is important for the healing journey. When dealing with Bipolar disorder often characterized by emotional ups and downs it is essential to show compassion for your experiences but also for the emotions attached to those hard experiences as they are a part of your history. Developing abilities such as self-reflection, self-discovery, self-awareness and self-acceptance are important pillars that go hand-in-hand with practicing self-compassion. When you come to the realization that the old methods of self-loathing and self-recrimination do not speak to your current mental health and wellness goals and experiences attempting a different approach filled with self-kindness, mindfulness and self-compassion can lead you to a new way of relating to yourself and your mental illness. 

Remember, the journey to self-compassion isn’t about ignoring or forgetting the struggles of your past, rather the journey becomes possible when you give yourself grace when reflecting on your experiences and you continue to show yourself kindness when you discover both the positive and not-so-positive aspects of the emotional experiences faced on your journey to wellness.